Friday, November 21, 2008

A Birthday and Unhappy Thoughts

My birthday was on the 19th of this month, so now I'm officially an old-fart at the age of 20! Go me! Anyway, I hadn't actually planned on doing anything this year to commemorate the special (or not so) occasion, so I thought the mildly planned day of shopping with some of the girls was definitely enough fun for me. We spent the day in Fremantle, enjoying the feel of a wonderful sea breeze, a peaceful atmosphere, and a good lunch at Dome (kudos to Ling <3).
But that wasn't all - some friends had organized a lovely get together at some random person's house that was half shared as a sorta surprise gathering for me and Winnie (whose bday is the 21st! So Happy Bday Bub!) We all spent the night playing some boardgames (Sale of the Century can get quite competitive doesn't it lol), eating and just talking. It was pleasant =) And what just made it more awesome was that they had got that delicious butter cake for me that makes me go "squee" XD! THANKS SO MUCH Y'ALL!! MUCHOS LOVE TO YOU =) It really made an already fabulous day perfect!

JUST FOR ME: I was just thinking about the future really, and how carefree I've been up till now. Now a care in the world, big hopes, big dreams, no big problems to make me drown - there was just - nothing. Nothing. Absolutely fucking nothing of substance that could hurt me. Was I a naive and dumb kid to think it would last? Perhaps - but I was happy living in my world of make believe, and rainbows. My world where I was great, I was unbeatable, I was - just me. Where it was ok to just be me. It was bliss to think of tomorrow and not have to worry about the consequence of a small action or of what people say. Why does everyone have to keep bringing me down when I've already sunk - even those who had promised to keep me afloat? They think they know me, they think they care - they 'think' why can't they 'know'! I'm not a kid anymore - I know, but I can still dream, can still hope, can still believe in what only children can imagine.... If Peter Pan can hear me now, then I'd like to take the first flight to Neverever Land. Direct please.

Confused? Thats Ok - I am too. Feeling a little bit emo. I don't like feeling this way - its very foreign to me and makes me want to jump of a cliff. Really it does.

Monday, November 10, 2008

No Bounty For Me

Today, Ling stole my chocolates. The End.

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